Monthly Archives: September 2005

tell them now

is there someone youve been thinking about? someone you care about? someone you love? a friend, your brother, sister, son or daughter? boy/girlfriend? your mom or dad? havent seen them for awhile? dont wait. go see them. call them. send them an email. message them. cause someday they wont be there. or maybe they will be but they wont remember you anymore. tell them now how you feel. take it from one who knows from past experience. and is about to know again.

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laughing, crying and what to do

well i just finished watching Byte This on and i laughed till i cried. if youre into wrestling at all, go watch Matt Stryker on Byte This. you wont be disappointed. the guy is hilarious.
now you find connections in the strangest places. stryker was talking about how WWE was his dream job and these were his words: dreams are things that keep us alive, and it sounds cliche but, you wake up one day and youre 49 years old and you say i shoulda, coulda, woulda, and you drag your feet to a job you hate everyday. you got to love what you do. you got to wake up in the morning, and be happy you can touch someone’s life, and have your life touched by somebody. i think you can see it when you see me, im just having an absolute blast.
now i dont believe in coincidence. i believe that things happen for a reason. i heard that for a reason. and since i cant give you my own opinion Pixie, ill give you that one. you make of it what you will and i hope it helps you out, when my hands are tied and i cannot. cause what kind of a person would i be if i went back on what i said and put my feelings over your well being with my opinion? not a very good person i think. and  i wouldnt be your friend would I?

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Larmes sur la Rue

i think i hurt my head trying to write this lol
Je l’ai passée sur la rue
Et j’ai pensé que c’était vous
En second lieu que j’ai été rempli avec joie
Comme un enfant encore j’étais
Mais naturellement ce n’était pas vous
Et il y a aucun nous
Et tous j’ai laissés
Est les larmes
Pour ce qui ne sera jamais

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The Truth

Always on my mind
I think about you all the time
At the lowest low and highest high
I know and yet I know not why
Inside my heart and in my soul
Only with you do I feel whole
I miss you more than I let you know
It broke my heart to let you go
You can’t fill me with material things
I’ll only find peace in what love brings
Happiness is a shadow outside my door
It knocks but I don’t hear it anymore
I cannot believe that love is wrong
Spoken in words or sung in a song
All I believe is what truth can do
The truth of three words, I love you.

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Random Thoughts Through the Filter of My Mind

im the demon in your ear

the one that causes fear

self loathing and doubt

 i cant wait to get out

 im the feeling you get

with the one you just met

 my they seem nice

 they talked to me twice

 maybe thats the one

 seems like such fun


 am i good enough for what i want

 will i succeed

do i deserve

what i need

 is it necessity

or is it greed


im the one you tell

when things aren’t going well

the one whos there

when you feel you dont care

im the truth you dont want to admit

that lives inside and you in it

the choice you have to make

the one thats makes your heart break

the love you have and refuse to give

the sorrow that takes your will to live



happiness does not equal a home

a lover does not equal love

tears do not equal sadness

words do not equal actions

Freedom does not mean you are free

when you are chained by your feelings

to what will never be.

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Moon Over Bourbon Street

Moon Over Bourbon Street. this is Louie’s song by Sting. dont know if you’ve ever heard it, but i think it would be something you would love, it made me want to read more about the vampires. hope you like it and that it plays for you.
 listen close for the howl at the end hehe.
There’s a moon over bourbon street tonight
I see faces as they pass beneath the pale lamplight
I’ve no choice but to follow that call
The bright lights, the people, and the moon and all
I pray everyday to be strong
For I know what I do must be wrong
Oh you’ll never see my shade or hear the sound of my feet
While there’s a moon over bourbon street

It was many years ago that I became what I am
I was trapped in this life like an innocent lamb
Now I can only show my face at noon
And you’ll only see me walking by the light of the moon
The brim of my hat hides the eye of a beast
I’ve the face of a sinner but the hands of a priest
Oh you’ll never see my shade or hear the sound of my feet
While there’s a moon over bourbon street

She walks everyday through the streets of new orleans
She’s innocent and young from a family of means
I have stood many times outside her window at night
To struggle with my instinct in the pale moon light
How could I be this way when I pray to God above
I must love what I destroy and destroy the thing I love
Oh you’ll never see my shade or hear the sound of my feet
While there’s a moon over bourbon street

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Lost in the Sea

Wading out into the water
And I cant see the ground below
Each step so uncertain
So much yet to know
Im terrifed of what is waiting
I used to know how to swim
But that was so long ago
Will it come back to me again
People floating by and waving
Enjoying their precious time
Bathed in the reflection
Basking in the light
Looking in the water
I see things I cant describe
Beautiful and wonderous things
That make me feel alive
Sometimes drops fall from the pools
Precious diamonds to be caught
Clouds that show up in the background
Remind me of what I havent got
Happiness and pain
And friendship and loneliness
Glimmers of hope and wonder
Sparkle like dew of a morning mist
And on the horizion
So far off I can see
A ship in the distance
With someone waving to me
I’m looking for a lifeboat
Calling and no one hears the cries
Surrounded for miles in a green wonderland
Lost in the sea of your eyes

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